I'm rolling over in bed unconcerned and comfortably numb.

action, baby!

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 23:22:45 GMT

Stole it from billy!

Redneck--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty?
[ ] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more then 2 acres?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 animals at your home?
Total X: 0

-Goth--
[x] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[x] Is most of your clothing dark?
[ ] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[ ] Are you pale?
[x] Do you like Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?
[X] Are you mean?
Total X: 5

--Punk--
[ ] Can you bmx/skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Vans? (SoMeTiMeS)
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[x] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do you have any piercings?
[ ] Do you like/wear mohawks?
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total X: 4

--Prep--
[x] Do you say the word "like"?
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/Aero?
[ ] Do you pop the collar?
[ ] Do u have short hair?
[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[ ] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cohen?
[ ] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] you like pop music?
[ ] Do you want/have a little dog?
Total X: 1

--Hippie--
[x] Is your hair long?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[ ] Do You want to save the animals?
[ ] Do you think war is unneccesary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[x] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total X: 2

--Gangsta--
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[x] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[x] Do you like to dance?
[ ]Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 4

--Emo-
[ ]Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like soft music?
[x] Do people not understand you?
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[ ] Do you cut your hair?
[ ] Are you lonely?
[ ] Is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights, a good song?
Total X: 4

--Surfer--
[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[ ] Do you hate tourists?
Total X: 2

--Geek-
[x] Do you wear glasses?
[x] Do you get good grades?
[x] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[ ] Are you on the computer often?
[ ] Do you ever get picked on?
[ ] Do you look forward to goin to school?
[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
Total x: 3

---Scene-
[x] has anyone ever referred to you as being scene?
[x] do you go to concerts often? shows
[ ] are you annoyed by rap music?
[x] are coffee shops cool?
[x] do you like converse?
[x] are peircings attractive
[ ] do you like striped sweaters?
[x] do you read mu
Total x: 6

Okay, so I got six for scene.... well, fuck it. i'm still not scene. IM LAUREN HATCH. DAMN STRAIGHT. DONT FORGET IT

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 01:38:38 GMT

Eh... maybe not...

i shot a man in reno

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 00:06:55 GMT

I feel refreshed. Things won't be how they used to be, but that's definetly okay. We got eachother...

no day but today

lauren "i like menstruating" hatch

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 20:50:44 GMT

Winter is depressing. I just can't wait til Spring already. I'm a walking time bomb. Everyone pisses me off. I have no patience. I want things to be how they were...

trying hard to forget that cold October day, when love challenged freedom to a fist fight

freedom looked victorious; but no one was expecting the outcome on that baseball diamond...

when Love reached beneath her plaid jumper, pulled out a switch blade and drove it..

directly through the heart of St. Angeles any notion of self-government

was left bleeding on the pitcher's mound.

So You Say,

"You're scaring me."

And You Won't Be There To Catch

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 00:35:46 GMT

the low fuel light's been on for days

it doesen't mean anything

i've reinvented myself, get over it.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 23:34:32 GMT

This is what I put here because it's been a billion years since my last update, and I don't really feel like mentioning it all. I stole this from Suzy, by the way, I miss her.

Name: Lauren
Nicknames: Aaliyah, Ali li, Nerual, 1990, 90, L
Sex: Female
Age: 15
Zodiac Sign: WAIT WHAT IS IT AMY?!
Parents names: Mike and Barbie Doll
Sibling's names and ages: Sharlett-18, Angie-31, Nicol-33
Pets: Nala is a dog. Snickers is a dog. I hate dogs

*Favorites*

Colors: i love all colors
Animals: can all die
Cartoon Characters: Strawberry Shortcake, Beavis and Butthead
music: we'd be here forever
Love songs: Soco Amaretto Lime, Dangerously in Love,
Breakup songs: Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off, The ground folds, caught out there, i should have
Happy songs: PLAY
Foods: eggplant parmesean
Cookies: Chocolate Chip, preferably on the crispy side
Veggies: uhm... i like corn? is that a veggie or a crop?
Fruits: tomatoes, strawberries, kiwi
Candies: nahh
Beverages: Pepsi
Cereals: KIX Berry
Music videos: Hmm.. i can't even think right now
Gum: Orbit
Pig out foods: BBQ chicke, spaghetti, mmmm
Restaurant: Aldo's, Olive Garden, How about Tavern on the Greens because its GORGEOUS
Sports: phuck them all.

Numbers: 1,3,9,
Letters: XxXxXxXxXxXx
Lunches: My favorite school lunch is toasted cheese and tomato soup.
Dinners: Mashed potatoes and what ever else i feel like having
Shampoos: Halo
Magazines: AP, Vogue, Housekeeping... haha jk

*Love Life*

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope
If so, who are they?:
Do you love them?
How long have you been dating ?:
Do you have a crush? Not really
Would you rather be single or taken right now?: SINGLE
How many people have you dated this past year?: 1
How many people have you kissed in your life?: Well, over 35 I stopped counting
How many people have you said "I love you too" and meant it?: Very few
If you didn't mean it, why did you say it?: Because I wanted to.
Have you ever had a hard time getting over someone?: Depends how much I opened myself up to them.
Are you friends with your ex/exes?: yeah
Have you ever cheated on someone?: You could say that
Have you ever been cheated on?: You could say that
What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you? Does my Mother throwing me a surprise party count? HAHA
What do you look for in your ideal mate?: Intelligence, Good taste, Sure of their selves, CONFIDENT, Creative, Odd, Attractive
Biggest Turn-ons: Scarves, Eyes, Hips

Turn-offs: Insecurity, Whiny, Girly

*Morals/Beliefs*

What religion are you?: Christian
Do you got to church regularly?: Yep
What do you think happens when you die?: Either go to Heaven or Hell
Do you believe in God?: Yes
Satan?:Yes
Angels?: Yes
Heaven?: Yes
Hell?: Yes
What do you think of abortion?: Disgusting. Atleast give the child away to a family who will raise it and support it
Suicide?: Immature
Flag burning?: Depends which flags
War?: If neccessary
Pop music?: What is pop today, anyway?

*What Did You Do...*

Last weekend?: shows. slept. eat. hang out. snuck out. church. shows
Yesturday?: put lights on a bush, slept, ate, hung out with SHARLETT
Your last birthday?: Went to Jethro's with some people, there was a surprise party for meee
New Years Eve?: Uno's. Slinky. Sang. We'll just stop right there......
Valentines Day?: Awww.... a bunch of us got dressed up and went to Jethro's. Ty looked amazing, as did Aaron, stopped at the mall, hung out with Mike
Easter?: I think church, ate with family
4th of July?: Drove to NYC, got on a plane and went to Spain
Halloween?: Sang... 'twas really cold
Thanksgiving?: ate, hung out with family, threw up
Christmas Eve?: I know I church and my Aunt's, I forget after that.
Christmas Day?: Opened presents, ate, hung out with family, went to the Wells', movies, hung out with Mike

*What do you think you'll be doing in...*

A week from now?: Probably sitting at my computer just like I am now
A month from now?: Getting ready for Christmas!!!
A year from now?: Auditioning for Sound of America I hope
5 years from now?: Hanging out at Barnes and Nobles
10 years from now?: By then I'll probably have built me a shack behind Barnes and Nobles
20 years from now?: that's scary
50 years from now?: hopefully dead

*Friends*
Thank God for every one of them

*Ever Been Called...*

Dumb?: As a matter of fact, Mike just called me a dumb bitch last nite!
Retarted?: That too
Ugly?: Yes
Hot?: Yes
Fat?: YES
Anorexic?: Haha uhhh...noo
A waste of space?: YES!!!! THANKYOU SHEENA!!!!
Useless?: probably
Sexy?: Yes
Smelly?: Marlaina told me I smelled.
A Slut?: Yeah...? Tell me how that one works out...?
Beautiful?: Yes
Smart?: Yes
Quiet?: I certainly hope not.
Boring?: I don't think that's possible
A Bitch?: Definetly
Rebel?: yep
Conceited?: Yep

*Currently*

What are you wearing?: my fuzzy blue robe
Who are you talking to?: Sharlett
How is the weather?: rainy, dark
What are you listening to?: Alexisonfire
What/Who are you thinking about?: Detty
ng/drinking?: Iced Tea
What are you looking at: The Computer
How are you feeling?: Cold
How is your hair?: its long
What time is it? 6:22pm
What are you anoyed by?: Mike, Chris, this girl Jess I don't know her last name, these guys in the advanced chorus

When Was The Last Time You..*

Burped?: this afternoon
Kissed?: the other day...
Went to the movies?: saturday
Went out to eat?: like two weeks ago
Cried?: uhm... i forget
Got dumped?:
Dumped someone?: a longgg time ago
Threw up?: Thursday
Peed?: a couple hours ago
Went skating?: about a year ago, I get really creeped out... long story...

Went for a walk?: I should probably start doing that

Ate ice cream?: a long time ago

*ThreeThings?*

3 things you enjoy doing
1. singing
2. being on stage
3. sleeping

3 things you want to try
1. sky-diving
2. driving
3. Pakistanian food

3 people you love
1. Amy
2. Jon
3. Ali

3 things you hate
1. Shallow people
2. animals
3. geometry

3 shows you watched when you were little
1. Rugrats
2. Clarissa Explains it all
3. Baby-Sitters Club!

3 things you regret
1. caring about someone
2.
3.

3 things you always say
1. for real right
2. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH
3. detty

3 things you are looking forward to
1. the weekend
2. detty
3. italy

3 things you like about yourself
1. confident
2. unique
3. sometimes really strange things enter my mind and i like that i let them come out

3 things you dislike about yourself
1. letting people in
2.
3.

3 things that describe your personality
1. Sociable
2. Loud/Obnoxious
3. Strange

3 things that describe your looks
1. I got that Laguna Beach hair... haha screw that, that's what everyone tells me
2. nice smile
3. long eyelashes

3 things that scare you
1. clowns
2. kidnappers
3. cops

3 wishes
1. to travel
2. to meet and have an impact on alot of people in my lifetime
3. learn how to cook

3 jobs you wouldn't mind having for a living
1. Musician
2. Ambassador
3. Psychologist

*Issues*

Do you do drugs?: HUGS NOT DRUGS
Do you have a metal disablity?: no
Are you on any medication for any type of disorder? no
Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder?: I eat too much...is that a disorder
What kinds of illnesses run in your family?: Sugar/Diabetes

*Who was the last person you...*

Talked to?: Monica
Yelled at?: probably my mom
Kissed?: let's not go there
Hugged?: Megan M.!
Went out to eat with?: I don't remember?
Talked to on the phone?: Sharlett
IMed?: Monica
E-Mail?: AFS
Fought with?: probably my Mom
Worried about?: someone i shouldn't
Wanted to kill..PINCH? I want to kill Pat
Cried over?: Jill... I miss her.
Thought about?: Pope John Paul II

My elders say, shine your light on the world.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 20:04:27 GMT

Crazy weekend. As usual. Today's Halloween. I want to do something scary. It's daylight. Here we go

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: sydney
First Screen Name: dance2990 .. hell yeeah
First Pet: dog
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: i believe Josh gunnet
First Record: mariah carey !!
First Car:
First Love: God
First stuffed animal: i dont know

NINE LASTS
Last Alcoholic Beverage: miller lite
Last Car ride: back to my house with the jons
Last Movie Saw: Stepmom
Last Phone Call: Jon mother fuckin Ross
Last Cd Played: alicia keys
Last Bubble bath: a longg time ago
Last time you Cried: probably like a month ago

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes
Have you ever been to another country? spain, ukraine.. AND GUESS WHOS GOIN TO CANADA!
Have you ever skinny dipped: haha YES
Have you ever been on tv: Yes.
Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it? Not really
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone? no

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. underwear
2. a Sloppy Joe;s t-shirt?
3. nail polish.?
4. hoop nose ring
5. contacts
6.
7.

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. slept
2. talked to kaitlin and sharlett ashley and jill
3. dr. phil.. yes, i did him
4. drank coffee
5. smelled pot from my mother's bedroom... that would be Jills' not my mothers
6. this entry

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. music
2. pepsi
3. sleep
4. friends
5. sleep

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. amy
2. sharlett
3. jon mcconny
4. kait

THREE CHOICES
1.Black or White: black
2.Hot or Cold: Hot
3.Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. take a ship around the world.
2. learn how to cook

ONE THING YOU REGRET
opening myself up

pay no more mind to what you think... it's as they do only...

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 19:41:45 GMT

DANCING QUEEN

makes my hair sweaty...... grody

ARENT we TO die FOR ?!

Here's some random pictures []

These are candles...... Brilliant!

i wish you could see we were sitting on lions.

Pay no attention to us.

scotty's tired.. leave him alone

i know you're thinking its highly illogical for this to be my mother.... but its true.... its my mother....

Family Portrait... what the hell do you think got me to become like this?

UPDATE : i am really missing Taleeky baby to death.... she was my girrrl....

I talk to children in Spanish, in Spain.

Actually... this isn't Colorado.... it's actually Mt. Everest... so suck it.

I missed the ark, but I could've sworn you'd wait for me...?

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 01:53:59 GMT

Alot of drama has gone down last week, but then again, doesen't it always? whatever...

... my weekend was VERY wonderful, can't say that it topped last weekend though, but I hung out with Ali <333 and a bunch of us went to Thad's for the night. and it was alot of fun of course. Saturday Sharlett Ashley Janei my mom and a bunch of other people went to the Hong Kong. Yay for Shrimp. I love shrimp. Then I went to Kings, haha, with Scott and Trey!! They're cool kids to say the least, we stopped at Sheetz, and I saw Casey, Jess, and Leannn... [ right chea ] and we went to LUKE'S, my baby boy!!! He's a crazy little mother fucker. Then I got confused and went home. HAHA. dont ask. Sunday was DISTRICTS, and although YALL KNOW i tried ----> everything that i possibly could to get out of it <---------------- Ms Hull just wasn't having it! but i'm glad I went... I made it fun for myself. I saw ERIC there so of course i hung out with him. we stood in the hallway and danced to Madonna. We also asked people if they wish their girlfriend was hot like us. They just kinda got really freaked out and kept walking, enough with the rambling. i MADE IT ON TO DISTRICTS. even as an alto I ! not my part at all ! but YAY. i'm actually kinda excited for Districts in february. well thats a long ways away. What else has been happening? I have developed a deep, dark, and passionette hate towards some people. You son of a bitch. but besides that things have been swell :) I have met lots of new people, and I must say they are spectacUlar ! *·. Ive been studying SO much more, trying to actually have good grades. I don't think I've ever actually studied in my life, this better pay off! This week should be fun. Homecoming dance is Thursday, and if it all works out that AND AMY FRICKIN WELLS will be coming!!!!!!! Isn't that special? Amy comes home Wednesday night. Thank God. I couldn't go on any longer without seeing her. It's been two weeks. WAY tOo long. She is the only person who understands me completely, because we're COMPLETELY THE SAME. And i love her. and i miss her terribly.

i'm bound to f a l>. l FOR YOU [for you]

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 15:14:00 GMT

It was a crazy weekend with Jamie, Ali, Ryan;Meg, Bil<3ly, UNDERSCORE YOURE NO ANGEL and the spOtligHt. funn times. and like you guys, I am also counting down the days. the eve of new years eve.... Damnit, We're just gonna party from now until Christmas. Anybody in?? lol. Yes. Right now i'm going to give props to CASEY MCCORKLE<3* ;she rocked her ASS OFF on friday night!!!! After Friday we barely made it up to Bedford. Well, we made it up there, we just barely stayed awake. Haha. It was cool though. Heard a VERrRy talented band from Maryland. Wow. I hope Ryan gets them to come here. Then we stopped by the Lion's Den for some drop out highhh yo. Duh, hello. Can't miss them Damnit Suzy!! The light turned too fast, luuuuucky for her;We dropped them off and Jamie, Jonny, and I went to Sheetz and then Jonny stayed over. SUNDAY after church and after our concert, Kaitlin and I went to the campus. Apparently we only needed 15 leaves, not 18. So Kaitlin and my adventure to the campus at 1030pm was a total WASTE... only... not really.... cause we had alot of WICKED fun....;:;'"...,;,,;;

i'll put up some pictures when im done doing this RETARDED FAMILY HERITAGE PROJECT for american studies.?

Stay tU ne DdDd

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 22:24:28 GMT

I was talking to Valerie today about a girl who's in college and has a three-year-old sister. I thought that was very fucked up. It was JUST THEN when I realized that was like my family.... No, wait. My family is worse. Therefore, Valerie is going to write a novel. My family is going to be its inspiriation.

beginthelie (6:15:48 PM): i love your family. it's like a soap opera.

beginthelie (6:15:55 PM): 35-year-old half brother you never knew about
beginthelie (6:16:00 PM): all of your siblings are, like, 80 years older than you

Yes. This is my life. HAHAHAHHA. I'm a mistake, ya'll !!!!!!!! Dang ME

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 21:44:13 GMT

Yeeeeeah.... That's what I'm talkin' about...... the fourteenth.... KICK ASS.

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 19:59:54 GMT

HEY DO YOU BELIEVE THERE'S ANYTHING BEYOND TROLL-GUY REALITY ?!

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 18:49:31 GMT

Right now I am listening to Copeland, digesting my chicken from lunch, wishing I was at Harvest Fest, and thinking about the change of fall. Before I go into one of my long entries about hte random thigns that go through my head, haha you know.. those entries no one bothers to read, I think I'll update you with this past weekend.

Friday, Jess and I went to the game and walked around for a while... I mean, of course we walked around what the hell elsei s there to do? Jamie and Ashley came to pick me up and we went back to the reunion show at Jaggard. Those scene sluts Kirsten and Amanda were there. Haha, I love those girls!! They're some crazyyyy motha fuckasss. I also go to see Ali! Yay. We want to go to the ren. fair before it ENDS. We would have alot to plan for. What else/ It was nothing really spectacular. Cool to see some old faces all put together again, doing the thing which they love. HAHAHAH wtf, did i just say that??! Please, tell me I did not just say that.... ANYWAY, Jamie and Ashley and I stopped back here for a bit then went to Sheetz, duh, hello? where else. We dropped Ashley off and met some people up at Papa John's-- and i felt like a loser sitting outside in front of papa johns. From there we went to some house thing, or something?? frat or something. i dont know, but i'm glad Jarrod told us to go?? So we could, listen to him play guitar, haha. Anyway, we went and picked up Jonny, and John Preston, Jon, Jamie and I went back to her house. Jon and I had a great conversation, which apparently I fell asleep right in the middle of, but he is very undetstanding. I guess John left. I fell asleep around four thirty. and woke up at 500. then at 7. then at 845. Yeah, we're still trying to figure out my damn alarm clock on my phone. So we were supposed to get Sharlett and leave for Messiah at eight thirty, but we didn't end up leaving until 1030 because we slept in. by the time we go there, we just slept anyway cause the three of us were so freaking tired. But I got to see my Amy. I just went down last weekend, but it felt as if it had been like a month. And I miss her SOOO much. If you have a best friend, Make sure you guys are the same age, and make sure you go to the same college, because this fucking SUCKS.

We're too cute when we're together... :*(

Oh yes, the one boy from the union was walking out the door, so of course I asked to get a picture of him for my friend Jamie who really wanted it hahah. He was very kind about it, and didn't call me a freak, stalker, loser... or any of those other mean names that i hear alot.... And we noticed he was sitting outside, looking rather lonely as he was eating so of course Jonny went out to introduce himself as Jamie and told him what a great picture it was of him. It was a good time. I miss Amy already. I missed her as soon as the second we walked out of the door.... Ohh boyy....

Anyway.... Well... you know what. I don't really feel like writing everythign else I was going to write. I'm much too mysterious to tell you everything through to my head. I love life. I love being myself. I don't want to sound like a bitch and say "i love myself", but i do have great self esteem. I guess I'm just sick to my stomach of everyone being so damn insecure with yourselves, and wanting the rest of us to throw you some big pity party. You are who you are for a reason. Simple as that. Be you and stop trying to conform to other insecure people. If people don't like me, for whatever I've done, or how I act... Well, that's fine. I'm not asking the whole world to like me. I'm happy being me and trying to put a smile on everyone's faces.... but if I don't, the call is no longer on me, but on you. If you would like to waste all of your time and energy just to hate me... hahaha... you are MORE than welcome to. BE MY GUEST. I won't mind, and I won't be sitting around sobbing over those who can't accept me for who I am, because I am myself and not like everyone else. You know what, I'll even give you a picture of me... You can throw darts at my head, or put some voodoo curse on me... hahah, whatever you'd like. IM STILL GONNA BE ME. I GOTTA DO ME! so succkkkkk it :)

i heard our song.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 01:45:28 GMT

Don't ever say
You ever meant it
Forever's a lie

Jumped out of the way
I took the bullet
A friendship has died

Now that I lie here soaked in blood
You still can't remember the things that I've done
I was there when you fell down
But I saw you smile when I hit the ground

Don't ever say
You ever meant it
Forever's a lie

Jumped out of the way
I took the bullet
A friendship has died

Inside my mind I dug up the grave
And lowered down the friendship that couldn't be saved
Throw on the dirt to cover the lies
But when I try to hide it, it just bleeds through my eyes

b j o r k . yppahy ltneloiv ? / ! Yes.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 23:07:32 GMT

Highlights:

Friday I setted sail down to Messiah College where I met up with Amy and Valerie!!! Simply beautiful. Plans to visit Valerie at Temple in PHILLAY are already in the making. Met Kimberly, Amy's sweet, sweet roommate who sees logs cabins and quilts in her near future. She's a cutie. Met a kid. He's fun. He likes pizza and Amy and doesen't believe I actually have a REAL leaf project... and I met a buncha other pretty fly motherfuckers.

I will poop in your butthole and you will poop in mine. Back and forth. Forever.

Saw Rachael Crownover. It was refreshing to see her face there.

Valerie sent Amy a genius card. We tried to find it online to post it up here, but I couldn't.
However, I'm going to try to look for it in stores because it's just simply amazing.

Oh yeah, our friend got up on the table at the Union and did a dance. It was sexy. Right Kim?!

Kaitlin finally bought her wedding dress! She's completely gorgeous.

No Switzerland.... Possibly Italy.... France being second pick...

I am not a sped. Why does Senora Rosenhoover treat us as such?

I went into the completely WRONG art workshop, but I'm glad I did. I met Rachel!!! She's
an extremely talented artist. I would even say phenominal, and that's only looking at a few
of her works.

Susan B. Anthony is my new role model.

Talked everything out. We'll see where things lead to. Feeling alot better about certain
situations... Maybe not all hope is lost and you don't really have everything you think you do.

SATURDAY I'm hopefully going down to Messiah again. Can't get enough of Amy<3 :*) i love you

LEFT MY CELL PHONE CHARGER AT AMYS.... BUT HOPEFULLY WE'RE GETTING A NEW PLAN AND NEW PHONES
ANYWAY. THAT WOULD BE SPECTACULAR.

I took a bullet.

she will never be me

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 18:41:37 GMT

You know there's two sides to every story)

See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
talkin' shit like a snitch
Why you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel

Fuck What I did, was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents,I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
well guess what yo,fuck you right back

You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to do your friend
now you want me to come back
you must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and thats a fact

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud?
fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
well guess what joe,your sex was wack

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
fuck it,I faked it,aren't you proud?
fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
well guess what your,your sex was wack

You questioned did I care
maybe I would have if woulda come to me
now it's over
but I do admit i'm glad I didn't catch your crabs
I can't sweat that cause Im not ur hoe

fuck What I did, was your fault somehow
fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin it didnt mean jack
well guess what yo, fuck you right back

I've washed my sheets about a hundred times, but the smell of you never seems to leave

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 00:20:38 GMT

School went smoothly, and that's all I'm asking for... to get through a day where I don't walk in the wrong class, or forget something of importance. Kaitlin, Ross, Jonny and I went to the GCS soccer game afterwards. I was glad to see David!!!! I love him so much. I miss those people... some of them... Leann and Jess and I went to BK then we came back. Eddie called me, which made me a little less bored for the time that our phone conversation lasted... but yeah, so like apparently complete strangers are reading my Livejournal, which I have no idea how they have access to if they only saw me on MySpace, because it's not posted there, and come to think of it, neither is my screen name, so that means you are actually spending useful time in your life to search for a link to my livejournal.... Hahahha.... That's so cute! I didn't know people loved me that much. You actually take the time to read things about my pathetic life, but then again, if i was in your place, this journal wouldn't seem very pathetic... So i can understand ;)ohh and bringing things up that are like in the past, I admire that lack of maturity. You must have a lot of fun in your life being as kiddish as you seem to be.... ahhh WHHHAATTTEEVVVVAAA !!!!
Jamie might move in with me when she moves back which would be sooo sweet!!! I can't wait. Well, I'm out for this one.

Post a comment if you're a stranger and have no life!!

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 01:37:31 GMT

Barbie Got Back! Go you! You're the closest thing
ever to a true black Barbie. Shake that fat
ass of yours.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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LISTEN TO YOUR HEART <3

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:50:58 GMT

BLOC PARTY IS PLAYING IN PHILLY OCTOBER 9th!!!!! Beautiful.

This weekend was some crazy fun. After the game, where I saw some old yet beautiful faces, I hung out with Casey and Mike and then went to Leann's with Jessa and Alicia. Good times guys! Can't wait for moreee... Saturday i went to a reception which I thought would be gay, but got to hang out with my dollface Megan Macaurelle<3 and Beth, Jake, Phil, and AB were there. then Val Pal, Kaitlin, Sharlett, and I went to Sheetz to grab some grub- chilled there for a while. Yesterday Kaitlin and I went to DelGrosso's a little bit then picked up JONNY and went to Krispy Kreme to see Mattee. I miss him. Then we went to WalMart and I saw Jolynn, i miss her too, and some girl who served me like a million stuffed mushrooms from the reception. Isn't that ironic.
We went in and took some pictures.... hahahaha Jonny and Jeremy got yelled at for riding little bicycles while wearing Darth Vador masks... I asked a few people if they had seen FeFe, but they all just laughed at me...? I'm not sure if that was a yes or a no....? hmm.... We went back to KK's and Mattee gave us some free doughnuts, SHHH, that's all that i need. I re-dreaded Kaitlin's hair again. They don't look very good now, but that's cause they just started- They'll look really super sexy when they dread themselves. and JAMIE IS MOVING BACK!!!! I really hope everything works out because I miss her.
I'm still putting things in the past. Everything is so different than what it was. Maybe it's not as different as I thought it would be, though. I really miss Amy. I might go see her this weekend, if it works out, but my mom is gay, so it probably won't.
Erin and I are going to go backpacking through Europe when we graduate and find the meaning of life. Well, I already found it. We're just gonna see what other people think it is.

We Can Do It.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 05:26:32 GMT

Updates

- i started dreads in kaitlin's hair
- i went to bed at 4 am
- today was first day of school... sheer chaos, but i enjoy that
- i hung out with mike
- everything is always fine until people fuck things up
- the pink is still not coming out of my hair... no teachers noticed so far
- i miss everyone from great comission, even tho i still don't remember how to spell it correctly
- you know where i live. i'll be waiting.
- i miss my school girls<333 Casey, Jess, Leann
- im immature and annoying
- haha fuck you
- cannot wait until this weekend, hoping everything words out well :)

I haven't finished putting on pounds of make-up and I haven't even gone near my Barbie Doll Dream House!!! Tonite Skippers gettin bitch-slapped. She dresses too trashy.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 03:25:42 GMT

I don't think this could be more right... Except the last one... That's a little iffy...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:41:48 GMT

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

stay tuned... im sure there will be more to come

.... we bad girls for life :*)

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:07:49 GMT

I just returned home from Amy's. She's leaving tomorrow for college. God, I feel like she died. I have never been closer to anyone besides her. I have definetly never gone through as much with her as anyone else, most of it was brought on by ourselves, but I wouldn't have wanted to go through it with anyone else but her. and thank God, Sharlett is here I really would be completely lost right now. If anyone, I swear if anyone fucks with her at college, I'll be there in a second. I care more about her than absoloutely anything in this world. I don't know what I will do now without her.

I know this is superr corny but I am bawling my eyes out right now. Amy, you know I love you more than anything in this world. ANYTHING. and I would not change one second of any time that I spent with you. We've been through so much together. Parents couldn't hold us apart, haha and neither will college. I love you MORE THAN ANYTHING!

good God, please catch for us the little foxes!

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 17:31:45 GMT

Hello, hello! I just woke up. My hair is an absoloute crazy nest. I am sunburnt all over. I look like I have not showered in.....ever. And it was all because of a damnn good time at the Purple Door Festival. I suppose I should update about that. I'm just afraid that if I put it into words, they would not capture the pure craziness that went down and the amazing talent these eyes have seen this weekend, but what the hell, I'll give it a shot.
First band we heard to kick it off is my absoloute favorite band of all time. mewithoutYou. I cannot express their BRILLIANCE. COMPLETE and utter BRILLIANCE. They played mostly all songs from their newest album, a few from the old ones, and they did so much more than rock that place. They vibrated the inner being of our SOULS. hahaha. They don't just put on a good show, they leave you completely awe-struck. Aaron leaves me completely awe-struck, and as a matter of fact when I went to buy a t-shirt, he was sitting at the merchandise table.... with those eyes, AH and his smile. I didn't have anything for him to sign (at this point I wasn't quick enough to think... Hey, my belt!) He signed my arm, "I don't quite know sometimes. AJW" And he felt the need to draw the 'w' the whole way up my arm.... GENIUS! Hahaha, He is probably one of the most weird but humble guys you will ever meet. Which he is everything not to be humble for. And he also asked me to marry him, that was beautiful.
We stayed and watched Blindside and it got a little crazy. There was about two major pits and then they just kinda blurred together and made one big one. We all got lost from eachother. Amy was somewhere up infront of us and I ended up with Mike and then we all got lost again. Caleb came to get me when Pillar started. (Thank God)
Saturday we came in the middle of Showbread, but we had to stand in the back. They were amazing. The drummer kept like flipping his stick and then hitting the high-hat or whatever, but he did it like consistently the whole time. Then he would like rotate the directions of his sticks and stuff.... CRAZY! I told Mike he better start practicing that, you know if he's not spending all his time with that wwwwhhhhoooor....
Anyway, the guitarist signed my belt :) He said he liked my earrings. I said "Thanks! They're from Spain" he said "Oh wow, thats cool."...... he wants me
Stretch Armstrong was the next band we really watched. He dedicated a song to the ladies and said "Dont let these guys get in the way." Amy and I were already pretty close, but we pushed everyone out of the way and said "Didn't you just hear him?!" and got even closer.
Hawk Nelson was next. Holy crap, they were shockingly mind-blowing. NOT. Uhh yeah, we walked to the car during that one. I checked out the art gallery, there weren't that many peices but most of the ones I saw were pretty cool. We went back to the HM stage for some Haste the Day! It got pretty crazy, but nothing like what we were soon to experience. Haha.
But they did really good.
I swear, yesterday it was like the hottest day of the summer. So Matt wanted to go back to the Snowblower thing and get sprayed by water and they wanted to sit on the hill for the Chariot, yeah... Big Mistake, but whatever. They played alot of cool little sound things like "Everybodddyy Dannceee Noww" haha it was sweet.
And what I have been waiting for.... N O R M A J E A N played last before the break for dinner. That was the most insane thing I have ever been in, and they didn't do so bad themselves, either. Haha. then Aaron came on!!!!!! I thought I was going to have an orgasm... haha jk, but it was beautiful. The crowd cheered for one more song and they came back. The bass played climbed up on the rafter thing, and got all into it but unfortunately, he dropped his bass straight on the ground. hahahaha. that really sucks, but they did really good.
Caleb, Amy, Jeanette, and I laid in the grass for a while during Lovedrug and some speaker on the Main Stage. thennn Matty and I went to get a shirt made and stuff, we decided to take about three hours too long, we lost our group. We figured Mike would be in front for Anberlin and Copeland, just to reassure himself that he will be upfront for Relient K and we walked and looked everywhere, couldn't find em. Duh. theres like a billion people, obviously we wouldnt find them, but that's when I saw the guitarrist from Showbread :)
So Matt realized he left his cd's and t shirts under the van YESTERDAY... Boy had me walking all around that damn city and then we had to walk back and forth to Amy's car, but anyway. we went to go see Relient K, I refused, but he made me. We just pushed our way up to the front and I don't know what happened but somehow while they were doing sound check we both got really freaking hyper. I talked to alot of people. Some girls gave me a glow in the dark bracelet!!! We danced the WHOLE TIME... Hahahah, we definetly had the most fun out of everyone in that crowd!!!! and we got everyone around us to dance too!!!!
On the way home Amy and I screamed our lungs out and then i fell sleeepy.
Then I came home and stayed up til about 4 something cause you know i gotta catchin up to do with Shar Shar...

It was a superbb time.. Don't you wish you would have went?